troubles.

Life has taught me a lot of things. At this young age, i have gotten into troubles that I solved wrong in the worst way. Troubles that caused me harm. Troubles that has made me less a person. Troubles that shook my being. Troubles that made me ignorant, indifferent. Troubles that made miserable. Troubles that challenged my faith. And no one knows exactly how I felt during those times. Only my God.

And troubles that made me a lot stronger, better, focused. And still, those troubles that I will forever ask for forgiveness.

Wherever life takes me. I will always be thankful for whatever it is, I have an awesome God who loves me and forgives me.

Missing Lala.

It's been a year and 2 months since we lost our lala. She died of COPD's complications.

I miss her everyday. She is the most beautiful person Ive ever known. She was not perfect, she committed mistakes at a very young age, she was mataray and snob. But she is a very lovibg grandmother. And that's what important to a grandchild. She was never selfish, she may have judged people, criticized others, but she was an example of what love really is.

I know she is just there, watching, and just.. Loving us, nonstop.

Championship's Dilemma.

After I won my second to the last game,my last game opponent told me ‘’wag mong gagalingan mamaya at wag kang tatayo ha’’. And I was like smiling and telling her ‘’Ngek, ikaw nga diyan yung magaling e’’. And yeah, I was sort of tensed because I knew she watched my game with the CBA stude, and according to one of our players, she watched how I moved my pieces. And again, I was like trembling. Got cold hands. As soon as I ate my lunch,ive been talking to our coach and co players. According to our coach, whatever move I am comfortable of doing, I should go for it. That time, I was thinking that I should change the opening because the Allied girl has seen me did that.  So my co-players, Meldrick and Kim played with me. I stick to my opening during our practice and they needed to destroy my defense. I needed them to do that so I’d be geared enough when that happens on my game. So we practiced and practiced. So after several practices, we went to the Library where chess tournament is being held. Game starts at 2:30pm. While waiting at our game, I played with this guy who was super good at chess. Little did I know, my friends Lindsay and Heather were on the same table as I was. Ahh.. CUTIE! Thanks girls for the support! They dropped by to say goodluck. Last minute and I was like going to change the opening or just stick to what I practiced? ( I was having cold hands). Our chairman gave us chewing gum so we can relax on the game because we were really queasy. Sheesh. The game will be starting… I sat, and did a little chit-chatting with my opponent. We shook hands, and game on!! I did my opening. I’m on the first move.. I STICK to what ive practiced. And I moved so fast. She was moving her pieces a little slow and I noticed that she has been thinking so hard on my first 10 moves.  As soon as everything went well, (it was like.. umaayon kasi sakin yung game). Nervousness just ebbed. And I started attacking her pieces. And I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like in a state of …. ‘’OH MY GOD. Wuhooo!’’  that’s my initial feeling. I was super happy. I GOT IT! She asked for a rematch , but the rematch wont count at all. No point or whatsoever. She just wanted another game and wanted to beat me but I was just so lucky that she was not able to beat me up for the second time. She told me this ‘Ikaw ang tinik sa laro ko e’. I smiled and laughed. I had a good game though. Just didn’t expect that it will be that fast. What she told me was it was her first time to have encountered that opening and the good thing was. I STICK!

Two words I learned and forever treasure that day.. FIANCHETTO and VICTORY.

:Fianchetto was the opening I did.

Fortunately, the other two girls won their games too. Our Board3 girl is the Board 3 Champ(8-0), Board 1 girl on 6-2.  Ako on Board 2, 8-0. That  made us the School’s CHESS GIRLS CHAMPION!  To God be the glory.

The CHESS GIRLS!

(L-R) Mara, the Board 3 Champ!

Me: Board 2 Champ!

Iarra: She was not able to play, she's our hanging player. but she super supported us, all the way!

Rochelle: With a standing of 6-2. Good enough! Im sure she'll be smashing the chess boards next year!

MY TEAM MATES! Plus our Chairman, Maam Pedroza and our ever so great coach, Mr. Cumba!

<3 CHESS TEAM!

 Surprsingly, 23 was my jersey's number. Well I guess that has been my lucky number. ☺

 I dont really care how much this medal costs. As long as I know that I worked hard to get this. ☺

The guys in the team. L-R. Meldrick. Allan. Greg.

Meldrick has been my practice buddy during my preparation for my last game. 

A shot minus Kim. 

I guess that will be the last time that Id be playing chess on a big event. But I’ll surely miss be forever inlove with Chess. It’s not a Geek’s game. It is everybody’s game. ☺

To God be the glory! 

Smash the board.

Written on September 3, 


I just got home from school and I really do not know how to start with this one.

Do you know how it feels when you feel like your body trembles and stuff? Trembling caused by cold, fear and excitement at the same time. That’s how exactly I felt on our 3-Day Chess battle in our University.

So yeah. I’m a part of the Nursing Chess Team, imperceptible though. The night before the Pistakasan’s  first day. I was practicing so hard and I exerted effort to be mentally ready. Haha. Jeez.  Well, I needed to be that mentally ready.

First day, I was able to really meet all of my nursing co-players and we waited for our first match. So here we go!! I’m going to be at Board 2 (there are three boards actually). Board 1, 2 and 3. My co-player wanted me to go onto Board 1 instead cause’ she believes a lot in me ( I guess) and she’ll be competing at Board 3 for a super sure win. No doubt she’ll be the Board 3 champion. Thing is, I don’t wanna be playing at Board 1 so I did stick to Board 2, but with that decision I left my team mates and coaches these words…I’d go for a sure win. Meaning, I should never lose a match. Meaning, I should be the Board 2 Champ. And I was quite surprised when I said those words. So I must stand with what I told my team. I must do my best, and break some legs as they say.

First match just started. Nursing vs. College of Computer Studies. I won. (White Piece).

2^nd match:  Nursing  vs. College of Education, Arts, and Sciences. I won. 2 down. (White Piece).

The highlight of my second match was.. I was on fire. I got annoyed with my opponent cause’ it super seemed like she was so hungry for victory. Grrr. The face, and everything. She tried to intentionally make me overlooked my pieces. And I got fired up. Blah blah. So I beat her up. I was not that ‘hungry for victory’ that time.  I only wanted her to see that I’m way good at it. Cause’ it seemed like she underestimated me, that is why my whole body seemed like to have ablaze.  Hey, that’s the only sport thing gummy that I know I can be really good at. So yeah. J)

Hello 2^nd day. We won by default on our 3^rd match, 4^th match was with Engineering. This time, no more trembling. Just me—Playing, Chillaxing but Focusing a lot. And yeah. 4-0. The 5^th match, again.. We won. Because the CITHM has no Chess girls’ representatives. That made me and my team mate who was in Board 3, 5-0 lead. Board 1 girl was in 4-1.

Now, here’s the catch. My last two games made me jumpy, quite anxious and nervous. I have been hearing stuffs that the College of Business Administartion and Allied Board 2 players are really good. So what I did was, I watched how the Allied Board2 girl played. Just did some sort of analyzing her moves. And I was about to freak out. Nah, kidding. As soon as I got home, I immediately had my homework done and ensued on practicing chess. My cousin, Alvin has been my Chess Consultant. He is just a high school boy but he was really good at chess. So we practiced and made me do a new opening. I needed that so I can have a good defense since I already knew who the Allied girl moves her pieces. So we did everything to make me better at that Opening. And yes, I was armed enough.

Hello 3^rd Day, the LAST DAY! We got 3 games. First game, we won by default. The Marine’s got no rep. Next game was with CBA. Now.. I sat on the chair and met my opponent. She looks good at chess, (as they say). So what I did was.. I started my first move with my new opening SURPRISINGLY. I was suppose to only do that on my last game. And I just did it. And yes, I won over the CBA stude. Made me on 7-0. Thank GOD.

Last game will be posted on my next blog. YAY!! J

Group B.

I for sure don’t care how others judge these people. I don’t care what others have been mulling over this group. 

As long as I know these things: They are true, unfeigned and just like me---They are fighters in their own world.  And they are my FRIENDS.