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December 19, 2011

No prayer is unanswered: God bless, Mindanao.


photos from google.

What can be more heart-breaking than seeing what our fellowmen are going in through down South especially this Christmas time? Yes, to most of us we are all excited for the coming Christmas and eager to get our gifts and new set of clothes, etc. But to some Filipinos, this will be the most depressing Christmas perhaps. If you have no idea on what I am talking about, go to Google and search for ''typhoon Sendong''. Filipinos down South (Cagayan de Oro and Iligan City) experienced one of the most devastating moments of this year. What breaks my heart more is that it happened on Christmas time. I can not imagine how my fellowmen will be able to overcome those. I can not imagine how they will still try to be positive and move on. It's sad. I know, we all know, that no matter how much we struggle, everything will be alright because everything happens for a reason. We lost not just one hundred lives but more than 600-700 lives and still many are missing. How heart-breaking it is to some families to lose their loved ones this Christmas. They need help.

Heart-breaking, isnt it? Now tell me, what is your struggle this Christmas? Want me to tell you mine?

My mom will not be coming home for Christmas but  still..she manages to send us what we need, more than what we need. My brother, Kuya Frank who works in Dubai, will not be home aswell, but still manages to give his family what they need. In short, I wont have a complete family this Christmas. I havent had any complete family for  more than 5 years (I'm not sure but its more than that). But.. I know they are in good hands, they have good set of clothes, they have someone abroad to comfort them. Well atleast, that is the most important thing. But those families in Mindanao, mothers and fathers lost their child, some lost their friends, a lot died and many families share the same sorrow of losing the people that they love this time of the year..--- no more complete family. No more days to look forward to as a complete family. 

I dont have the most beautiful clothes this Christmas, and I struggle getting new clothes. BUT, what can be more struggling than losing your home? Yes, its tragic. Our fellowmen down south lost their homes and other possessions brought by this typhoon. By losing their home, they lost their clothes,appliances, etc. some had their cars broken, establishments were affected. 

Now, if you think you have the biggest problem in the world, THINK. You are too blessed. We are too blessed. If we cant send them clothes, food, etc, the least thing we can do is to pray for them. Its a tough time for them. Remember, we've been really blessed this year and a prayer wont hurt us. May our fellowmen see light in the toughest time of their lives. Let us pray for them. No prayer is unanswered. 

.No matter how bad we see life, no matter how we feel devastated, I'm sure God has His own reasons. God Bless, Mindanao. God bless our nation.

Check this out if you want to help. 
Ateneo de Manila and Xavier University-Ateneo de Cagayan: https://www.facebook.com/ateneodemanila and https://www.facebook.com/groups/39179551493/
Southern Philippines Fundraising Campaign on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/events/182804068482386/


the little kid


December 7, 2011

Thank You & Goodbye.

The rain is pouring hard outside and I just got home. I have a news for you, TLKC! I'm cleared at work. Yes, what you're thinking is right. I decided to quit on working in the Call Center and now I can finally say ''Thank you for the memories, Alorica.'' I've been trying to clear everything up since Friday but there were some miscommunications with the sched, and I also tried it last night. By the way, I was with Merrill who also decided to leave. Anyway, even if we waited from 7:30-11:40pm, we're happy to know that we're done. Really done. 


While waiting, we stayed at the pantry and gave some of the people I met there loads of hugs. Gaah, I missed them. I really did. It was so nice to know that you were loved somehow. Even if I only spent 3 months there, I really felt I was loved. Even up to the point when people knew that we decided to leave, they still showed how happy they are for us.Wow. I must say that it was really a fun and worth learning experience. I guess what really made my stay in the company worth remembering was the people that I got to be with. I know this maybe too personal, but I had my own reasons and I want to share w/ you guys the few lines in my letter to the company.


'' ...............I came up to the point where I can not really go to work because I realized that I can not really do something when my heart is not into. I am thankful for the company for the chance that you have given me from the very beginning. Your company has been really nice to me as well as the people that I got to work with. With that, I want to be always at my best when I'm dealing with the  customers but I realized I can no longer do the job. I want to give my customers the best of customer service but it was hard when your heart is not into it and I never want to bring down the company that has put a lot of trust in me. 


From the moment I got here, I have always been grateful to Alorica. In return, with full honesty I want to let you know that I can no longer continue the work that I started. From the time that I left the company, I got the chance to rest and think harder. Now, I am more determined to continue my journey as a Registered Nurse. 


I will be forever grateful of Alorica and its employees for all the things I have learned here that I will never forget. ''


Knowing that everything's okay, I know I have to move on and continue my journey as a Registered Nurse. 


Working in the call center taught me alot of things. You have to learn how to play the game so you'll win. In my case, I realized it was enough for me to play the wrong game and it's time to play the game that I love with passion.


To the people that I met there from my CLIP family to PST and A-Bay,( to my trainers, co-trainees), to the employees who were very nice to me, to the supervisors who have been really nice, qa, my supervisor and the members of our team, to the people in the pantry and security, clinic people, hr people, THANK YOU. Also, to the customers that I had the chance to talk to, thank you! It was my pleasure to serve you. 



PS. I'm grateful and i will always be.
PPS. I've got tons of good news but let's take it slow. 
PPPS. Remember this? God answers in three ways. 
First, He says Yes and gives you what you want. 
Second, He says no and gives you something better.
Third, He says Wait and gives you the best. 

Thank You and Goodbye, Alorica.



the little kid

November 3, 2011

You're indescribably precious.

Isnt it sweet? Oh Lord. I know everyone gets to receive such but this thing right here is just truly timely.

God has been so great. But this year, its incredible. I should know. Every time I ask him for something, He gives that to me. (Oops. As long as I work hard on that). There were times that I struggled a lot this year but WHOA. GOD NEVER FAILS. JESUS SAVES. I am really wide amazed with all the twists and turns of my 2011 but so far so good! Struggling but always surviving.

Yes, there were times this year that I experienced being down in dumps. Many many times. Literally. I’ve been down for a couple of times this year. My relationship with Patten and some of my closest friends went on a roller coaster ride.  A tough roller coaster ride I must say.  I felt a little struggle in school (Thesis and all the graduation blues). My mum’s sickness which really made me sad.  Work. A lot of things. Relationships, School, Board Exam, Work. Seriously, I struggled for the past few months. Thing is, I didn’t lose faith.  I held on to His arms tighter than ever. I strived to trounce on those exigent moments of my 2011. When everything in this world fails, God will be there to lift you higher and He will never fail you. All you have to do is to trust His loving ways, Trust His Love.



Looking back, I'm glad I faced those struggles and passed very well. Yes, I always say I still struggle. We all struggle at some point. But since my teenage years, I learned to thank God for my struggles because my struggles make me stronger; I also learned to thank Him for my defeats because my defeats taught me how to fight back and do well next time. Not only that, my defeats made me realize how great God's love for me is. And that's one of the sweetest things this life has to offer, Gods love.


Everytime I struggle, I pray. I think. I let it out and pray again. I wouldn't even notice that God is preparing something better than what I prayed for. You know in life, you just have to look what's beyond the picture. Look within. 


If you are reading this, and if you're struggling like the little kid (I know we have different struggles) what I can just say is to keep the faith, my friend. Life is never easy, we all know that. Just show the Big Boss the desires of your good heart and I'm sure in no time, he'll grant your wish.



Plus, sometimes its nice to struggle. Its nice to be tested. You get to experience God's love more when you're struggling. 



Yes, I'm struggling and still finding ways how to survive. But I'm sure I'll get through this because God will never give us anything we can't handle. Whatever kind of struggle I'm experiencing at the moment, good / bad I'd still thank God for all my struggles. 



Good morning. Enjoy your November, folks!




You are very unique and precious. If you are struggling and having a hard time getting through it all, just remember this my friend: Jesus Saves. Trust His Love for you.


 ☮♥☺

the little kid

October 30, 2011

My heart has it's own reasons.

Cold breeze. As this month ends, people in the city start to feel this certain cold breeze. Just a reminder that Christmas is on it's way.

Before I doze off, I just want to share the week that I had. Well, I've been productive this week. I worked from 12am-9am 4 days this week, I was absent from work on Monday because of severe back pain (well I got really tired from a trip and my body was really sore so I decided not to go to work last Sunday night, technically for my Monday 12am-8am shift). Moving on, I'm learning a lot at work. I mean, im still learning how to strategise at work and still on practicing the basics. I organised my clothes and cleaned my closet last Tuesday; changed my bed sheets and went to church last Wednesday ; Washed my bed sheets and clothes last Thursday. Productive for me. Also ran errands for my mum.

On the other hand, I received a message from my eldest brother. He's kinda setting my expectations. He was saying maybe they would no longer be able to come home for the holidays as planned because my sister in law got pregnant. When I read the message, I felt this little sadness. Hey don't get me wrong, I'm so excited about my sister in law getting pregnant and have a new additional angel in the family. Thing here is that, I really miss us. Being complete and stuff. You know, distance hasn't been really good for quite some time and it's been like ages ago since I had a complete family picture. It was like when my Eldest brother comes home, the other is out of the country. Vice versa. And now it's like the same with Mama. It's like there's always something missing in the house. Looking at our dull Christmas tree, how I wish we can be complete this Christmas. Yeah. How I wish.

I was walking around at the mall later on the evening with my boyfriend Patten, looking for some christmas decorations so for at least our little home will be a little ready for Christmas. But, I ended up almost in tears. I just thought of ....Christmas is just right around the corner, and I'm missing "us" more. I was trying my best to be silent and keep my mouth shut so my tears won't fall. Patten knew about it. He's always the first person to know if I'm having my own predicaments. He tried to find my way to divert my attention. Well I knew how to handle such.

If you know me, I'm the type who is very optimistic and despite my world's twists and turns, I manage to look on the brighter side. Don't get me wrong, I know Christmas is about Jesus. But I hope you do know that in most families, it's the time when they can bond, exchange all the hugs and kisses, and to the family I have, it's also the season that we always look forward to so we can be together physically.

So yes, it's really sad not having my mom for Christmas since I know she's been struggling at the moment because of work, her sickness, and menopausal issues. (he-he). It's sad that my excitement to see my brother and his family has just gotten back to zero. I've been really excited about them coming home with my sil and her bump.

Another thing is, I'll be sad if I wouldn't be able to spend the holidays with Patten which is also our anniversary time. We're turning four this year but what really makes me sadder is that.. There's a possibility that they won't be able to visit London and spend Christmas with their family. And were still hoping that they'd get to spend the holidays there. I know how it feels not to have a complete family on a Christmas day. Let's be natural and true. We all want a complete family to celebrate the birth of Jesus.

If you're in the same situation, you'd know what it's like to be eager to see a complete family picture. Yes, I have my reasons to be sad. It's human nature. On the lighter note, I still want to say I still have the best reasons in the world to be happy  this coming holidays.

One: I wished one thing to happen this year. I wished that God gives me this thing because I want to have the best christmas this year. I told The Big boss about the specific gift that I only want this year. Best gift, my license. Meann becoming a Registered Nurse. My first Christmas as a registered nurse. I will be celebrating it with my professional license.

Two: there's a new angel on it's way. You guys know how much I love my nephews. They're the whole world to me. Hearing the news about my sister in law's pregnancy, wow! I was having my tears of joy when I saw the picture of her positive pregnancy test on facebook. We all hope it's a bouncing baby girl because we still don't have any little princess at home and that makes me the unica hija (still the unica hija).

Three: I just knew about mama feeling alot better. She's been feeling bad lately and hearing that she's doing good at the moment is a bit of a relief. We may not be spending the holidays but for us here, we want her to be fully healthy. God is forever great and there's a line up of Christmas celebrations that we will be spending together on the coming years. (Wow. Glad to have said those words, but my little brother Franz, Papa and yours truly really miss you Mama so please stay strong for us).

Four: I'm also excited about a new baby. I love Patten's family. His cousin Tots and his wife Aiza, (which became good friends of mine) are expecting a baby girl on Christmas Eve! They already have a name for her. She'll be called Erin Kelsi. I love babies and I know the couple really experienced a roller coaster ride, so as a good friend, and as a family, I want to be there for them.

Five. We are turning four on the 29th of December. Its been a sweet and rough roller coaster ride for us. Ill always be grateful that I found a better half in Patten. Quite cheesy.

Six. I don't know what's on my sixth list. Yes, I have my reasons to be sad and the major reasons were said here, some are a little private and too personal so better be left unsaid.

I always have my reasons to be happy. God loves me so much and I trust His love and plans for me and for the people I love. I guess that's the sixth reason. You know, I did a lot of praying and working hard this year, and at the moment God has never failed to give what I'm praying for. But there's an exception, the things that are out of my control, like my mom and my brothers not being here on christmas. There are some exceptions. But so far, when I ask God for something and work hard for it, He gives me what I want. God is too Great. That's the reason why I strive harder now because when I work hard for something, God finds ways so he can give me the fruit of my hardwork. God spoils me too much that's why I try my best to return His love by striving hard and love others. God blessed me a lot this year. I say a lot. By being too blessed, God always gives me quizzes which I think I passed His previous quizzes with flying colours.

To the end this, I hope you do understand the reasons why I'm becoming a little drama queen for the coming celebration of Christ's birth. Let me just say as an ending of this very personal blog, "I trust Your love and Your plans for me, Father".


P.S I started scribbling these words out last night, 11:30 pm and I didn't realise i fell asleep. Continued this past 4am and it's 6:08am. It's Sunday and Ill try to get back to slumber and have a date with my God later. Stay blessed, folks. My heart has it's own reasons that reasons wouldn't understand so there you go.

Love,

the little kid


September 10, 2011

STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART.


Maraming Salamat po sa inyong lahat. Nakaka-taba po ng puso lahat ng greetings nyo.

Gusto ko pong magpasalamat sa mga taong ito: Sa inyo, na hindi ako kilala personally pero bumabati sakin. Maraming Salamat.
Sa Abnuins. Im glad I made you proud. Lakas nga natin kay Lord. Salamat sa sobrang pagdadasal nyo at pagpapalakas ng loob ko, I love you guys. Saya. 


Sa mga kaibigan ko ng high school, na pag karating ko sa sm food court ay may mga banner effect pa sa tissue nakalagay na Mary Ann F. Munoz, RN. Congratulations. Kayo na kahit sino nadaanan natin ng gabi ng August 20 ay sinabihan niyo na RN na siya (pointing at me). Sobrang salamat. Sa suporta nyo, all these years. Maraming Salamat.




My BSN 1 & II-11 classmates. Thank you ng sobra sa lahat ng pinagdaanan natin. Salamat sa masasayang alaala. 






BSN III-IV 10. Congratulations sa ating lahat! Sigurado pare-pareho tayo ng nararamdaman sa ating pagpasa. Maraming salamat sa mga dasal nyo, at suporta. Sa mga December NLE warriors, kayo na ang next! :)



Salamart rin sa mga kaibigan ko sa YFC na ipinagdasal ako. Maraming salamat. My friends in YFC, thank you for your prayers. You know who you are.

My TB (Tropang Bryan) friends, thank you for believing so much in me. Mapa-BBM at facebook, sobrang positive at sure ng lahat ng sinabi nyo sakin.


Sa wave 164, 4/4 RNs kami. Salamat sa inyo na talagang nagsasabi na pasa kami dito. Glad we made it M, Zhe and Merrill..

Sa mga CI ko nung college, lalo na sa mga nag-motivate sakin. Maraming Salamat po. Sa totoo lang, hindi ako kasama sa mga ni-recommend ng college namin na kumuha ng NLE. Imbes na ma-discourage ako sabi ko sa sarili ko eh papatunayan ko sa inyo na kaya ko.

Sa review center ko, Carl Balita Review Center. I made theright choice. Walang araw na lumampas nung Final Coaching na hindi nyo pinaramdam na hindi kami papasa. Im glad I chose CBRC. Hindi puro aral, mas maraming motivation. Mas maraming oras na pina-realize samin why we need to pass, why we need to make it. At yun nagging vehicle ko to get what I want and be motivated enough.

Sa kasama pos a household ng mga magulang ko, ilang araw bago ang NLE, alamko po sama sama nyo po ako ipinagdasal, isang araw bago ang result sakto nasa bahay po kayo at ipinagdasal nyo po ako, wala napo ako mahihiling pa. Ang dami nyo pong dasal.

Sa iba ko pang mga kaibigan na before and after the NLE, nagtiwala, you know who you are, Maraming Salamat talaga ha.

My Uping Family. 
Linlyn, sobrang thank you. Seatmate kita simula thirdyear, hanggang sa board exam tayo parin magkatabi. Sa room habang nagboboards, sabay natin nilalabanan ang 'antok' (haha) . At ang mga pastillas natin na bonggang nakalagay sa desk natin. Nag-gigisingan tayo pag may isang nakakatulog sa board. Kahit hindi natin pinalampas ang Np1-Np5 nang hindi nakatulog, eto tayo. We made it. At lagi magkasunod pangalan natin. Sarap.



Heds, sobrang salamat. My duty partner-in-crime. Asot pusa tayo pero sobra tayo magmahalan. Naalala mo nung boards, nasa kabilang room lang ikaw, magkikita kita tayo pagkatapos. 



Len, Heds. Eto ung pangarap nating 3. Sama sama tayo. Sa puyatan, sa kwentuhan, sa katamaran (hahaha), sa pa-late-an, sa pagdadasal, (sumimba pa nga tayo kahit misa sa patay eh. Haha), sa mga di pagkakaintindihan. Eto parin tayong 3. Buong buo. Tanda nyo pag pinaguusapan natin na hindi natin maiisip kung may isa sating 3 ang babagsak, eto nga. Binigay nga satin ni Lord yun. 


Upings, kahit may kulang sating isa, sobrang nagpapasalamat talaga ako kay Lord parin dahil kayo ang nakasama ko. Sa pagdadasal, yung isa isa tayong magdadasal tapos nag-iiyakan na pala habang nagdadasal. Yung pupunta tayo sa divisoria para mag-liwaliw at siksikan. Yung mga-bibigayan tayo ng mga pulang underwear sa isat-isa. Naalala ko pa, nung July 1, pumunta tayo sa Quiapo. First Friday. Siksikan. Ang init. Talagang kapit kapit tayo, dala buong sandata natin sa board exam, simula sa uniform, panty, bra, ballpens, pencils, envelopes, noa, panyo, sapatos, stockings, lahat na ng pwede ipa-bless. Pina-bless natin. At iyak na tayo habang nakanta dahil si Linlyn biglang umiyak ng nakita si Tita Evelyn, kaya tayo nadala narin. Napakasikip, napakahirap, pero worth it. 


Ung gabi bago mag-boards, nag-retreat pa tayo. Kaya pati si Tita Evelyn, pugto rin mata kinabukasan. Naalala ko pa, magbbrainstorming tayo, kanya kanyang opinyon. Samu't saring pananaw. Naalala niyo ba nung gabing nanalo si Marcelito? Inantay talaga natin sila, nung nakita ni Oca na may sasakyan ng artista sa baba (nasa 7th floor tayo), dali dali tayong bumaba, si Lindsay, Ako at si Oca. Dala dala mga reviewer natin at na-star struck tayo kay Jovit Baldovino. Sumama pa nga si Car at sina Heds, at hinantay natin si Marcelito sa lobby ma-congratulate lang natin siya. Probinsyana. Pero sa loob loob natin, Wow! Good Sign to! Home of the winners pala to! Tapos don rin pala nakatira si Congratulations kaya lalo na tayong nasiyahan. Mga araw na nalalapit, nagtataka tayo, hindi tayo kinakabahan, sabi nga natin. Sobra sobra ang power ng prayer. Sama sama tayo sa 2 linggo bago ang boards, gigising, mag-gigisingan, maghaharutan, mag-bbrainstorming, mag-kukulutan, mag-susulat sa salamin ng 7b2 ng kung ano ano, magkakapit ng Papasa tayo! RN na tayo! Sama sama sa pagpapatibay ng loob ng bawat isa, sama sama sa lahat. Congratulations satin. We made it! Eto ung pangarap at talagang ipinagdasal natin.  

Sa mga taong nagdasal po para sakin, sa boyfriend ko, si Patten. Hindi alam ng mga tao kung gano moko ipinagdasal. Diba nung Board Exam ko, unang araw, pumunta ka pa talaga. Nung padalwang araw, nagdasal ka ng lahat ng mysteries ng nakaluhod, sobrang salamat dahil ikaw naging shock absorber ko. Sa mga araw na kahit magkalayo tayo, sabay tayo magdadasal. Sa mga araw na napapalapit na board, ikaw ung laging magsasabi na pasa yan! Ikaw pa nga ung unang nakakita ng pangalan ko eh. Nauna kapa sakin. Maraming salamat sa lahat ng pagod, sakripisyo, suporta at dasal mo. Higit sa lahat, salamat sa pagmamahal. Ma-swerte ako sayo. Sa pamilya po ni Patten: Tita Beth, hindi pa po ako nag boboards sobrang pinapalakas nyo na po loob ko. Un nga pong hindi pa po nalabas result nag-popost na po kayo agad sa wall ko, sobrang salamat po. Alam ko po sobra nyo po ako ipinagdasal nina Tito Sammy, Tita Thelma, Yuniz at Oyo boy jan. Maraming salamat po. Kay Kuya Patrick at Jaica, salamat. Pinalakas nyo loob ko. Salamat, alam ko nagpa-mass pa kayo para sakin. Jaix, thank you. Ikaw kasama ko nung nalaman ko na pasa ako. Sobra akong panic ng mga oras na yun. Sabi ko sayo nung hindi pa nalabas result, please be strong ha kasi ako kabado na talaga at nangingiyak, salamat sa  pag-iyak mo kasama ako. Kuya Kirby and Ate Aiz, thank you. Nangunguna kayo sa greetings kahit wala pang result, haha. salamat talaga! sa Vergara family  salamat po sainyo. Nanay Ida, you have been like a mother to me at bago ako umalis pa-manila lagi mo sinasabe sakin sure ka na papasa ako. salamat sainyong pamilya Nanay. Maraming Salamat po at talagang itinuring nyo na po talaga akong parte ng pami-pamilya niyo at masaya po ako na naging masaya rin po kayo sa naging resulta nito.

Hindi ko alam kung pano papasalamatan ang pamilya ko.

Mama, thank you for inspiring me. Kahit magkalayo tayo, hindi ka nag-fail to be there. Ilang minuto bago mag-umpisa ang exam ko, natataranta ka kasi sabi ko sayo inaantok ako. Ikaw ung parang mag-eexam. Grabe dinasal mo. Alam ko. Hehe. Ikaw yung nag-papanic pag di ako nag-aaral.  Ma, deserve na deserve mo to. Wala akong masabing mahaba. Alam ko kung nandito ka lang, ikaw unang iiyak kasama ko. ikaw unang magbabalita na pasa ako. Wag kana sad na hindi tayo magkasama, magkakasama rin tayo. Alam ko napasaya kita. Alam ko sobrang grateful ka rin. Masaya ka pag masaya ako eh. Sad ka pag sad ako. Syempre, magkadugtong tayo. At Ma, alamo para sayo to. 

Si Papa, two weeks before I took the NLE. Sabi ko kay Papa, Pa, pray over moko. Habang pine-pray over ako ng tatay ko at ng bunso kong kapatid, iyak ako ng iyak. Halo halo emosyon. Sabi ko kakayanin ko to. Nung tinext kita Pa na pasa ako, umiyak ako nung nagreply ka na ‘Salamat at dininig ng Dyos panalangin ko’. Umiyak talaga ako kasi un ang isa sa mga reply mo na hindi ‘K’. Hehe. Loko lang. Pero iyak na talaga ako.

Kay Franz, bunso kong kapatid na alam ko ipinagdasal talaga ako. Thank you bunso.

Kay Kuya Doods, Ate Melba and Dom, salamat at lagi nyo ko pinagdadasal. Malayo man kayo, ramdam na ramdam ko suporta nyo sakin.

Kuya Franton, Ate Apple, Paul & Sean, salamat sa pagdadasal nyo para sakin. Sa hugs and kisses ni Paul and Sean na nakakapagtagtag ng kaba. Yehey, nurse na si Menmen. Sabi mo nga Kuya Franton, nung gabi bago lumabas ang board, ‘Ngayon palang kino-congratulate na kita’. Takbo ko non sa kwarto ko at umiyak ako.

Lolo, naalala ko pag sinasabi mo lagi sakin na papasa ako. At wala ako rason para hindi ko to mapagtagumpayan dahil puno ako ng pagmamahal sa Diyos at sa kapwa kaya magtatagumpay ako. Napakarami mo binitawang salita bago ako mag-board. At thank you talaga, Lolo.

My Fajutagana and Muñoz family, hindi kayo nag-doubt sa kakayanan ko. Napakalaking suporta nyo at dasal. Salamat po sainyo.

Sa mga guardian angels ko, si Lala. Bago ako umalis pa-Manila. Pinuntahan ko puntod ng Lola ko. Siya ang isa sa mga unang tao na magiging nurse ako. Estudyante palang ako, siya na nagging unang pasyente ko. Estudyante palang ako, laki na ng tiwala nya sa mga kakayahan ko. Thank you Lala. Lucky charm talaga kita. Ganon din naman ang mga tinawag ko pa sa kalangitan na si Nanay Eli at tatay Adi. Alam ko ginabayan nyo ko. At sa lucky charm ko na si Tya Neneng, she’s a special child. Tita ko sya. She passed away. At alam ko, lagi lang siya andito. Sa room ko, may picture siya, at alam ko, love na love ako noon, at alam ko isa talaga sya sa lucky charms ko. ☺

Yung taong nagpa-aral sakin, I want to make that person proud. At hindi siya deserving na bumagsak ako dito, isa yun sa mga rason kung bakit ako nagsumikiap pumasa. This is also for you Aunt Loida. Also to Tita Allan and your family members. Thank you sa suporta at pagmamahal at tiwala.

To tell you honestly, I’ve been praying hard for this.

Pag po nagdadasal po ako, lagi ko sasabihin na Lord, alam ko po ibibigay niyo po sakin ang lisensya ko dahil alam ko po alam niyo po ang desires ng puso ko kung bakit gusto kop o maging nurse. Mahirap maging confident, pero mas masarap maging confident kasi alam mo na si Lord na bahala sa lahat basta binigay mo kaya mo at alam mo hangarin mo. I had that faith.  Despite all my fears, hinayaan ko na lang si Lord na magmanipula ng lahat dahil ginawa ko lahat ng makakaya ko. Hindi ako nag-doubt sa sarili ko dahil alam ko kasama ko siya. Sobrang hirap. Pero alam ko kaya ko, kelangan ko kayanin dahil gusto ko ‘to.

Pag nagdadasal ako, lagi ko sasabihin, ‘Lord, one take lang tayo ha?’. Napaka-laking bagay ng lalim ng relasyon ko sa Diyos. Sa mga araw na natapos ang NLE, gigising ako at magdadasal at sasabihin ko, ‘Lord, naniniwala po ako gagawin niyo po akong RN’ Natutunan ko kasi na kelangan tumigil na tayo sa ‘I think, I think’ dapat ‘I believe’. At yun. Puro ako I believe, kahit minsan dadating sa point na manghihina ako bigla, sobrang ibabalik ako ng faith ko. Napakalaking bagay na naipasa ko yun.  Iniwasan ko, mag-doubt sa sarili ko. Sobrang daming biyaya sakin ng Diyos kaya wala akong kahit anong rason para mag-duda sa mga biniyaya Nya sakin. Yun lang lagi nakakatatak sa isip ko. Yung kwarto ko, notebooks ko, papers ko, puno ng Mary Ann F. Muñoz, RN. Oo, may RN na. Para ma-motivate ako. Para ibig sabihin, wala ng atrasan, hindi na pwede mabawi. Kelangan ko magtiwala sa kakayahan ko. Pag gising ko, makikita ko na agad ang note na Mary Ann F. Muñoz, RN Take One. At itinatatak ko sa isip at puso ko yun. Sobrang dami kong chechebureche kasi kelangan ko magtiwala sa sarili ko.

Sabi ko nga, napakarami ng tao na nagdadasal at tiwala sakin. Oo, napakarami. At sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi ko sasayangin lahat ng dasal nila at suporta sakin. Ang laking bagay na may mga taong sumusuporta sayo. Nakaklakas lalo ng loob.


Higit sa lahat, gusto po ng puso ko maging nurse. Hindi lang nurse, but a registered nurse. Sabihin na natin na, nung una, hindi ko choice ang nursing pero ngayon, hindi ko na ma-imagine ang sarili ko na hindi nurse. Sobrang saya na nakapasa ako.

Kung noon, gumigising ako at magdadasal na ‘Lord, naniniwala po ako gagawin niyo po akong RN’ o kaya naman ‘Lord ako po si Mary Ann F. Muñoz, RN na ko diba dahil yun ang gusto mo para sakin sabay smile and I love you Lord’. Oo, ganan ako magdasal pag-umaga.  Ngayon ganito na ‘Lord, thank you po at RN na ko. Love you, Lord and smile.’ Ganito pala talaga Lord ang feeling. Swabeng swabe, tagos sa kaluluwa ko. Para akong nanalo sa kung saang pageant o higit pa doon. Galing mo talaga, Lord!

Higit sa lahat, para to Sayo, Big Boss. Ikaw ang kasama ko. Ikaw ang Super hero ko.

I am Mary Ann F. Muñoz, a newly Registered Nurse. My license is for all of you guys.

☮♥☺.

July 23, 2011

Truth is...


I am not very vocal here about my relationship's predicaments and stuff. But now, I am here to write down how grateful I am-- again for having Patten. We've been together for 3 years and 6 months (43rd month on the 29th). . Everyday, I thank God for giving Patten to me. All these years he has continued to be my best sounding board, my shock absorber, my prayer partner, and my human diary.  Cheesy, yes. But I am really grateful for all the things he has done for me. I try not to talk about him as much as I can because it's cheesy and I want to make it private. But allow me to just express how g.r.a.t.e.f.u.l I am. How many times have i said grateful? Excuse my mushy-ness. I always find it hard to scribble my thoughts well when it comes to Patten. He's no extraordinary, but there are so many special things about him that I find it hard to tell. 

I've committed a foul in our relationship. Foul means, something that shouldnt be done in our relationship, so its foul. If some are used to lying in their partners because their partners wouldnt allow them to do what they wanted to do, well i am not. Now, I just have the courage to blog here that, I lied to Patten. (not that I chose some other guy over him, okay, (its not that). Lying is an issue in us because we dont lie with each other. And we never tolerate lies. It was just after I realized (after the lying and stuff) that I cant take it. Small or big, I cant because Patten doesnt deserve that. So, I eventually told him about what I lied about. I knew he'll be mad, I knew i should accept what the consequences may be, I had to be ready if I wanted to let him know. I knew it all. What I only kept in my mind that time was: He needs to know because he doesn't deserve a single lie.

I was lucky enough that despite him getting mad about the causes of my lying, his girlfriend lied on him, and stuff, he just hugged me and told me not to never do that again. He set aside his anger. His love for me was unfailing. Something I should always be proud of. Yes, it wasnt easy to be courageous enough to face it. It wasnt easy to say hey i lied to you about this and that, sorry for making you look stupid, sorry for this and that. Why? Because the damage has been done already. Too late for some apologies but I had to apologize. But I dont want to be too hard on myself, more importantly ... I never want to be unfair to him. So, thats it. Face the consequences no matter how miserable you'll be. But heck, I am a lucky girl. Girls should begrudge me. Id never let go of this guy. Never. He's a lot to lose. The one whom my soul loves. Cheesy but true. The little kiddo must be really grateful.


PS: The Truth Will Set you free but It first, itll make you miserable.
Truth is, i am a lucky girlfriend. 
☮♥☺

July 13, 2011

The No-CumLaude nor Dean’s Lister Speech

Now its time to blog about the most tremendous events of my college life. I am writing this at exactly 8:39pm, July 12, 2011.  I wonder how I’ll construct this blog.

The No-CumLaude nor Dean’s Lister Speech:

I just wanna say Hey, I am no College Student! I am finally a College Graduate. A Bachelor of Science in Nursing Graduate. Let me tell you a story, when I was in highschool, my aunt and some of my relatives told me to take BSN because of the opportunities that lie ahead especially abroad. We all know that Nursing has been a massive boom-bang-whatever-you-call it in year 2000 something.  So I was like okay-whatever-you-guys-want-it’ll-be-just-fine. Well, actually when I was a in gradeschool I wanted to become a lawyer, a CEO, a nurse and even a nun. When I got in high school, I felt like I wanted to be in Politics since I was in the Student Council, and I love reaching out to others like what I was doing in service @ KFC and YFC. I wanted to take Psychology, because I wanted to understand people and some other facts in Pysche. I wanted to take Chemical Engineering despite of my lack of mathematics’ skill. But do you really know what did I want to become? I wanted to become a Full-time worker in service. I wanted to go to different countries and inspire others (yeah, seriously).  That drive was because of the people that I have been looking up unto in service. I told myself, just in case I wont have plans of getting married or something, I’m gonna go full-time.
And Yes, as soon as I graduated from high school, I knew that what I am about to take in College, Nursing. So there was this 16 year old kid, and she enrolled in Lyceum of the Philippines University-Batangas. To cut the story short, little by little I realized that I am loving every bit of the course that I chose. Inch by inch, I have come to realize that I can never imagine myself not being a full-pledged nurse in the near future. I have come to love Nursing with all my heart. Nursing isn’t just Nursing.  It made me realize a lot of things. It made me realize how to really value the life that the Great Man above has given us.

Well, Of course I wouldn’t learn to love nursing without the people who shared with me the knowledge about Nursing, my Clinical Instructors, they are the best may it be in hospital or lecture. My College friends whom I share every bit of the struggle and joy of pursuing our chosen career.  I had my ups and downs while pursuing BSN, but I have a Great God that He made every little thing so possible that I was able to finish it.

The primary reason why I am writing this is that I want to thank my parents (although Papa wouldn’t be able to read this) for the unending support and unfailing love that they continue to give me. I wouldn’t be to where I am now without my parents, they have been really supportive of me. For you guys to know, my parents give me the freedom to decide and to choose, When I decide, they will support and give me pieces of advice. They wont brag about so many things, really. But of course, like any other parents they are the most concerned of me. My Mama and Papa raised me well, they continue to teach me lessons that I need to learn even up to now, and they reproach me when they need to. I am glad that I was able to give my parents my Diploma. I knew for the meantime, it’s the best gift that I can give to them. They deserve my Diploma.

I would also like to thank the people who have been so supportive of me, may it be in sports, orgs or programs that I joined. During those times that I was competing in chess, in grand case, I have my friends who have been so supportive. Win or Lose. The friends I made in College (lets not include my Gradeschool-Highschool years here, okay?). Its never easy to be friends with some people, because we all know there will always be some people who will judge you in and out and I guess you don’t wanna be friends with those. Anyway, thank God for all the friends I made in College.  Special mentions: Ian Guttierez, she was my partner-in-crime. ; Lindsay and Heather that despite our differences, I did feel that they loved me. No, I do feel that they love me, every day, in their own little ways. I don’t want to be biased, okay? They were just the c.l.o.s.e.s.t ones. PTLs, Group B Former and New, 1-11, 2-11, 3-10 and 4-10, Co-Chessmates, Co-presenters, the people I had to get get along in Campus Based YFC, and the friends I made outside the classroom, you guys made my College life worthwhile. I love all of you.☺

I know I have already blogged about the goodness of the one who helped me get into College and financed me in my course.  My Aunt.  I am sorry I really cant tell about this thing here because its too personal and should really be kept in private. I’ll just leave you guys with : I am so blessed that my aunt has been there, reaching out her caring hands.

Above all, I can no longer thank God for making all these things possible. I have been through a lot during my College days and whenever I can no longer tell anybody on whatever I was going through, God has constantly comforted me. No one knows ‘exactly’ about the pains and the struggles that I really had in College.

I am no Cum Laude, I am no Dean’s Lister, but I am proud of what I have become. I am thankful for the people I met in College. I am blessed with everything that I’ve learned. All the memoirs I had in my 4 years in College will forever be cherished.  No need for some posh prose or whatever.

Last April 13, we had our Dedication and Pinning Ceremony. I was at the happiest at that day. Despite the fact that Mama couldn’t be there, Papa was there, from the beginning and at the end of the program. He was there together with my youngest sib Franz, my boyfriend Patten and one of our closest friends, Bancs. I was happy because what I can only remember was there was just one time that Papa attended an event in school, that was when I graduated in Day Care way back 1994, after that he wasn’t there attending some of my most memorable events in school (gradeschool, highschool, college, he didn’t attend) and there he was, attending my almost-last-march in school. I was happy to share the stage with the greatest man in my life. I was just trying my best not to cry because how I wish Mama was there. I knew she wanted to be there. How I wish I shared the stage with my parents like any other students did. I wanted to feel what other students felt that time, both of their parents on stage. I wanted both of them to see that ‘Hey, your little girl has finally gotten her Diploma’. But that alone, Im sure I made my Papa proud. I made him happy just like what any other parents felt that time. I aint gonna write long about my mama not being able to attend because I’m sure she will cry a river once she reads this. 

Btw, I graduated on April 15, 2011. :-)

PS: Patten Vergara, I know you’ll be able to read this, thank you for being there. No more posh prose, okay. Thank You. 

Now, can i share the photos and stop talking? :P

April 13, 2011: Dedication, Pinning and Recognition.
That's me. 
LOL.

with Lindsay and Heather.


with Ian Guttierez

Tried my best not to cry. :P
with one of the Clinical Instructors I admire most, Ma'am Bergado.

April 15, 2011.
GRADUATION DAY.

April 15: Graduation Day.
With Papa and Franz.


 
 Presenting to you, myself! a BSN Graduate! =)


PS: I am thinking of posting more photos here from the Dedication and Graduation, I'll just try to work on that. xxx

March 3, 2011

A thought for the small minds

Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people. 
Criticism is the disapproval of people, not for having faults, but having faults different from your own.



Out of my massive boredom-ness, I sat all day and just look for some thingmajijs to read. Blog posts, and tweets and stats of others. So I was just thinking. What do others get from sarcastically saying such annoyingly untrue and idiotic judgment on others. What do they really get? Just wasting their precious time in sarcasm and idiocy. I say mind your own business. Others they hardly know, Oh! Get a life, dude! If we always want a change in this world, I guess the change must always start first in ourselves. 

Maybe. People should try looking on the good things others do, not with the little things they have done wrong. Kaya walang naunlad e. Some just have kept on bashing others' lives they hardly know with sarcasm. I pity those, seriously. How happy can they get. Are you guys stuck on Initiative vs Guilt, you self pity alot guys, your excessive emotions are annoying. I think you guys are punishing yourselves for doing such. 

I dont know anything about all of you. And I hate saying things to others I dont know personally because I dont know their life's stories. I mean, hey. Whatever you've gone through, good or bad, dont screw up some more because you feel totally messed up. It wont help if you selfishly criticize, if you do nonstop sarcastic talking, and (excuse me, let me use the F word) if you fuckingly destroy yourself from being educated. 

Cant others just feel good about who they are and stop wasting their so-called precious time on others they do not know personally. I say they do not know personally. Stop all the talking, get a life on your own, People! How insensitive some can be. Oh well. So nothing can stop others from saying annoying untrue words about you naman e. You just got to be  You. Do whatever you want. Cos even if you do it or not, People will STILL say things about you. That's how this world is. 

P.S I am no angel. Life is good when you're happy and no insecure.  

My message to those criticizing in the worst way:
Too much talk leads to sin. Be sensible and keep your mouth shut. Prov 10:19


being criticized in the worst way: 
''You are a glorious, shining sword and criticism is the whetstone. Do not run from the whetstone or you will become dull and useless. Stay sharp.'' says Duane Alan Hahn


xx the little kiddo