A visit will not hurt, isnt it?
As I move on with my life, I carry with me the lessons I've learnt in the past. I made a lot of decisions, which hurt me so bad. I've mentioned on some of my blogs that I used to be a leader at this certain community called by God. It's been a year when I decided to go on a lie-low mode. And I have always wanted to visit the community. I knew deep within me, I am missing a part of me. A part of me, just being there.
......October 23-24 2010. Marks the day of the Regional Youth COnference and it just so happened that it'll be held in Lasalle Lipa. One and a half weeks before that, I was convinced by a former partner and a good sister of mine to attend it. So I thought of I must give it a try. It wouldnt hurt anyway. So I made it as a part of my birthday wish-list.
5days before the said conference, I was so excited. Excited to see the people I missed, so I've perceived the conference as days with loads of hugs and kisses to share plus the day that i'll be raising my hands up high. Excitement was covering me.
I welcomed the 23rd of October with a huge smile on my face. Went to La Salle by past 10. As soon as I got in the registration I saw some good friends. Hi and Hellos. And I looked immediately for Justine! Ran onto her, I was so giggly. Hugged her tight.
....................Was able to witness the usual conference happenings.
.....................I helped with decorating the Batangas' booth. Oh, you'll love the aroma of coffee. Great job, Ikisse!
..................Helped Justine and Kristine with some stuff.
...................Had a fun time with Fonzo.
The most awaited part of the conference came. The night wherein there will be talks to be delivered, sharers that will inspire. Fonso and I were helping Kristine and Justine since they'd be models of the GREENeration. Fonzo &I went on the field cos we reall wanted to participate in the worship and we're just in time.
I know it's another chance of being there. And I never want to waste that chance. I told Fonso this 'Ahh, namiss ko to'. Being high for the Lord. Not just you, you're in a field with a number of youths praising the Lord, jumping and raising their hands so high, I MISSED IT! I was so moved by the songs we sang, I felt like crying cos I know I super miss being there. Ahhhhhhh. LOVE IT. The sessions started. The sessions were delivered well. One thing that from that night that I instilled and will always remember is what the speaker said:
.........Fonzo asked me why did I make a decision of letting go of what I love most--serving. and with full honesty. I told him my reasons. Which I have mentioned from my blog.
Ahhhhhhh. THANK YOU LORD! All along, I was too occupied by the thought of i'd be having a good time with friend I missed, but I was absolutely wrong. I realized that, it was a time again for me to have that 'time' with Him. It was the time for me to forgive myself. I've been so hard on myself. So I had this sign from Him that it's about time to forgive myself. And inch by inch, I am able to do it. I know i will always get through with life's troubles. Thank you Lord for that opportunity.
As I move on with my life, I carry with me the lessons I've learnt in the past. I made a lot of decisions, which hurt me so bad. I've mentioned on some of my blogs that I used to be a leader at this certain community called by God. It's been a year when I decided to go on a lie-low mode. And I have always wanted to visit the community. I knew deep within me, I am missing a part of me. A part of me, just being there.
......October 23-24 2010. Marks the day of the Regional Youth COnference and it just so happened that it'll be held in Lasalle Lipa. One and a half weeks before that, I was convinced by a former partner and a good sister of mine to attend it. So I thought of I must give it a try. It wouldnt hurt anyway. So I made it as a part of my birthday wish-list.
5days before the said conference, I was so excited. Excited to see the people I missed, so I've perceived the conference as days with loads of hugs and kisses to share plus the day that i'll be raising my hands up high. Excitement was covering me.
I welcomed the 23rd of October with a huge smile on my face. Went to La Salle by past 10. As soon as I got in the registration I saw some good friends. Hi and Hellos. And I looked immediately for Justine! Ran onto her, I was so giggly. Hugged her tight.
....................Was able to witness the usual conference happenings.
.....................I helped with decorating the Batangas' booth. Oh, you'll love the aroma of coffee. Great job, Ikisse!
..................Helped Justine and Kristine with some stuff.
...................Had a fun time with Fonzo.
The most awaited part of the conference came. The night wherein there will be talks to be delivered, sharers that will inspire. Fonso and I were helping Kristine and Justine since they'd be models of the GREENeration. Fonzo &I went on the field cos we reall wanted to participate in the worship and we're just in time.
I know it's another chance of being there. And I never want to waste that chance. I told Fonso this 'Ahh, namiss ko to'. Being high for the Lord. Not just you, you're in a field with a number of youths praising the Lord, jumping and raising their hands so high, I MISSED IT! I was so moved by the songs we sang, I felt like crying cos I know I super miss being there. Ahhhhhhh. LOVE IT. The sessions started. The sessions were delivered well. One thing that from that night that I instilled and will always remember is what the speaker said:
.........Fonzo asked me why did I make a decision of letting go of what I love most--serving. and with full honesty. I told him my reasons. Which I have mentioned from my blog.
Ahhhhhhh. THANK YOU LORD! All along, I was too occupied by the thought of i'd be having a good time with friend I missed, but I was absolutely wrong. I realized that, it was a time again for me to have that 'time' with Him. It was the time for me to forgive myself. I've been so hard on myself. So I had this sign from Him that it's about time to forgive myself. And inch by inch, I am able to do it. I know i will always get through with life's troubles. Thank you Lord for that opportunity.
'I believe You're my Healer.'
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